LIFE: me, myself and I

waaaaa........ i'm crazy in love with GLEE!!!!! latest episode 'theatricality' was a BLAST... it doesn't matter that i'm suppose to be studying right now and not watching GLEE.. but who cares, well okay my grades may care.. but right this moment so what? whatevs, i mean, my bad boy PUCK was soooo hot n sweet... i loved his rendition of Beth (although i love Sweet Caroline a tad bit more) and the GAGA number was freakin crazy.... oh, dramatically I just wish right now i could be whisked away to McKinley High if not to join glee club (bukan nak merendah diri tapi taulah suara sendiri x berapa nak Celine Dion) but at least to meet Noah Puckerman...sigh...i wish....

and as for watching the last episode of GREY'S ANATOMY it was like riding a rollercoaster only with a whole lot more crying and tears and a little less screamin - since its quite hard to cry and scream at the same time and not seem totally crazy.... i mean all the scenes were heartbreaking I just couldn't bear to watch. its like the producer deliberately made it torture for us to watch... just watching all the doctors getting shot by that crazy guy and then Meredith having a miscarriage was like a total tear stimulant... habis je tengok, i was like emotionally drained sampai serious x larat...


I know I know, its called study week so that's what i' supposed to do but miss glee n greys? so not in the agenda...i mean bukanlah macam x study langsung - belajar 2 jam rehat 3 jam ok what? so lets just let me fulfill my fantasies of seminit ade kat McKinley High, seminit lagi ader kat Seattle Grace... i mean you can't blame me for having a fantasy of being a talented singing n dancing performer or being a hot shot brain surgeon.. sigh...i know, right now, berangan laa banyak mana... xdenye jadi... so i guess nak x nak kenala balik kepada cita2 asal menjadi pharmacist =p

p/s: i know i'm a bad bad blogger... just can't get a hang on the updating every minute thing...

insyaALLAH today will be the last day xde laptop. esok dah nak dapat balik dah...in honour of that i terfikir nak tulis something...gedik kan.. pasal tu pun nak tulis.. the thing is, banyak benda dalam hidup ni kita rasa 'kalau xde mesti ak xleh survive'....contohnye:

• handphone: zaman tecno-mechno ni benda yang paling org rasa xleh xde... tak kiralah iphone ke blueberry ke nokia 3310 ke.. mesti kena ader kat tangan.. kalau pegi kelas x bawak mesti bengang, kalau tidur xde kat sebalah mesti x nyenyak (ni sebab nak ader alarm) handphone ni lah nak guna main tepon2 org main mesej tersayang main email2 utk org yg hp dia up sket dari org lain (berlagaklah tu).
• laptop: yang ni saya pon terasa gak.. dengan laptop nilah sebagai pelajar berdedikasi, kita gunakan untuk belajar, membaca artikel n notes n blah blah... ye ke... ke quoting abah 'buat tgk movie, download cerita main facebook jelah tu'
• family: ni no komen sket... i don't think i can survive without them.. ye mama, abah along, kak lang, kak chik n adik.... angah saaaaaaaaaaayang korang...
• friends: sebagai org yg kepoh macam mak cik, i have to admit yang ni susah sket kalau xde... yelah sapa yang nak dengar segala bebelan ku.. siapa nak melayan angin x tentu hala ku ini... paling penting siapa nak hug me when i really need one kan... kawan jauh atau dekat, rapat atau tak, memang kita perlu.
• si dia tersayang: ewah, siapakah dia??? well untuk saya yang xde xde ni (bukan tujuan mempromote diri single okay) i don't knowlaaa... seksa kot.. tgk org2 dekat yang menangis airmata berlagu bile boipren pegi.. xpun bile girlpren lama ader cik abang baru.... seksa laa kot...

but, from these few weeks of hell tanpa laptop (11 minggu okay, i counted) i learned something. manusia ni, we have this survival instinct, meaning ader mechanism dalam badan kita yang help kita untuk cope... mostly thru activation of our 'fight n flight' mode n our homeostatis response. ok, i know what your thinkin right now, giler over minah ni... baru xde laptop dah beria cakap pasal sains sains ni..OVER!

tapi seriously, i learned to cope. belajar buat assignmengt awal2, sebab xde laptop nak buat jadi kena pinjam, org dah bagi pinjam xkan buat2 xreti nak guna lama2 plak... datang uni pun datang awal2 sebab nak guna internet, dahtu boleh plak balik lambat, kalau dulu habis je lecture terus cabut balik... x tengok belakang dah... nak print notes pun terpaksa pinjam laptop org (di kesempatan ini saya ingin mengucapkan ribuan terima kasih kepada teman2 serumah yang sangat baik hati menghulur bantuan di kala kesusahan.. kan dah cakap xleh survive tanpa kawan)... xdapat tgk movie kat laptop, tengoklah tv cenonet yang kitorg ader tu...

so, moral of the day, we learn to be a better person when things get taken awayfrom us. kembali kepada contoh:

• handphone: belajar jadi lagi punctual sebab mana boleh nak call2 org xpun nak mesej2 cakap 'otw dah ni, kejap lagi sampai' padahal baru kat depan pintu rumah. latih body bangun pagi tanpa alarm, dahtu org dulu2 xde alarm x semayang subuh ke? ni ader alarm pun tak bangun..cheh...
• laptop: pengajarannye seperti tersebut dalam kisah peribadi
• family: okay, yang ni takut nak cakap sebab xnak fikir pun kalau ia terjadi.. but if it does happen , moga ALLAH tabah kan hati.... jadi org yang lagi kuat dan berani...
• friends: kawan ni, hilang satu datang beribu.. bukan berlagak, tapi itulah fitrah... selagi kita open ourselves, give diri kita ngn org lain a chance, insyaALLAH semua org boleh jadi kawan semua org... btw, x baik putuskan persaudaraan...
• si dia: hmmm. payah sket nak cakap... sebab kan, boipren yg hilang girlpren dia, bersumpah akan menanti hingga ke mati-kisah benar ok, berapa bulan kemudian ader je girlpren baru.. so what the fish??? tapi, betullah mesti seksa n pedih, cuma kena percaya ALLAH tetapkan yang terbaik untuk kita... kan awak?

bile dah xde baru rasa menyesal... ya tepat sekali.. tapi bile dah xde juga, kita jadi lebih baik sebab kita rasa menyesal yang kita ni rasa menyesal... faham ke?

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p/s insyaAllah laptop kembali sabtu ni...