good job boys!

let's get this straight.. i'm not a big football fan.. and its not just because i'm a girl because i do know lots of girls who are way more fanatic than boys can be... maybe because i don't really get the point of the whole game...

i mean, i get the kicking the ball from one side to the other, the goaling and basics but i mean i could never understand the craziness and obsession people have about a ball... blame it on the no brothers i guess.. even abah only watches a game or two sometimes (he's more of a badminton and sepak takraw fan)

i think everyone around me knows how not 'sportsy' i am...and i'm using the term very lightly... one of my biggest fears are balls.. literally balls... be it netball, basketball, football, handball.. name any game that has the suffix ball at the end and i'm officially scared.. u must be thinking, wow she must have had a really bad experience with balls... sadly... i don't have any such experience to share.. i'm just scared of them, no reason...

but last night.. last night i did watch the match Malaysia vs Indonesia.. and i have to admit it was spectacular... seeing my country boys beating the Indonesian 3-0...that was just a crazy.. i mean again i have to admit i didn't know that they had it in them... getting beaten in the preliminary rounds 5-1 doesn't give someone like me that much confidence to support the boys...

alas they have proven...the patriotic side in me (which i guess forms a big part of me) was jumping we joy... at each three goals i shouted 'Goal' and 'yes' and 'cantek' just like an avid football fan would... well honestly according to my sister i was actually shouting throughout the whole game... not shouting curses though, rather shouting in fear everytime the ball was near our goalpost...and everytime that Khairul Fahmi (our goalkeeper) did an awesome job of protecting it...

just one thing that actually shook my patriotic streak.. unfortunate to say there was some Malaysian fans that using abah's term 'tak sekolah punya orang'... the incident of lasering Indonesian players... i mean how much more stupid could you get... have you no confidence at all for the boys... at least give our boys a chance to play with pride...not with the help of stupid lasers...gosh... balik sekolah belajar sivik ajelah org macam ni...

i wouldn't say now i'm a convert... but i have fallen in love with the boys (it does help that there are some really handsome and cute ones)... i now 'partly' understand the obsession behind the game... each single goal was worth more than money could buy because that pride and joy that the boys gave us, i can't even put that into words... they've made the country proud... i know its too early to judge.. there's still the second leg in Indonesia and I really hope they do well over there...

i wish they would have worn yellow... brings the Harimau Malaya out more

on a personal note, i've added "a good sportsman or at least can play good football" on my potential husband-to-be list... i mean, reiterating the fact that i'm not a good sportswoman (a totally lame one if u ask me) i think i'll be needing a good one by my side.. if only to teach my kids to play :)

p/s off to holiday.. nak pi utara na...

kurung merah jambu

i'm feeling really proud of myself... see, i've taken up something new! alright, i'm bluffing, i didn't actually take it up rather being 'forced upon' by mama to take up a new thing which is sewing...

yes, you heard me loud and clear...sewing, historically, a must have skill for every young girl and a pre-requisite before meeting your future mother-in-law... an activity that in this current time and age is seeing the furry lights of extinction... but which i took upon as a challenge, to finish my personal own pair of baju kurung...

fortunately, my granny, Mak Semah was around to show me the way... she even shared the story of how during the world war II, when there was no threads (benang) to be used, people those days had to use pineapple leaves that were soaked to make threads... epic....

first step, Mak Semah helping to measure and cut the material


that's me sewing the pieces together


this is called jahit tepi, where we trim the edges off


the hardest part that took me 2 days, 'menikam' tulang belut and 'menyembat'


tada.... the finish product

now i know why tailors charge more than RM35 for a basic baju kurung... it really takes a lot of patience and frustration to get it right...when will i make my next pair..hmmm.. we'll just have to see about that shall we...

p/s huge congrats to my sis kak chik for her 9A's in PMR...

Ku nanti jemputanmu

banyak benda dalam dunia ni, kita rasa dah nak dekat dah dengan kita, dah nak sampai dah ke tangan kita, tapi kita selalu lupa, keputusan akhir sentiasa ada di tangan-Nya...

begitulah yg dirasai saya sekeluarga.. mengikut perancangannya, insyaAllah minggu depan kami akan bertolak ke Jeddah untuk memulakan ibadah umrah selama 13 hari, 11 malam....

tapi takdir Allah yang menentukan segalanya.. tak sampai seminggu sebelum tarikh bertolak, travel agency memberitakan yang visa ziarah ditolak kerajaan Arab Saudi kerana beberapa masalah..

bukan kami je yang tak dapat pergi, malah semua rakyat Malaysia dan negara2 lain juga ditolak visanya kerana kerajaan Arab Saudi ingin 'membersihkan' kota Mekah dari pendatang2 asing yang menbanjiri kota suci...

dalam hati ada rasa sedih, rasa helpless juga hopeless.. banyak sebenarnya benda yang telah saya rancangakan.. list doa saya bertambah setiap hari.. doa untuk diri, keluarga, kawan2, kerjaya dan jodoh...

mulanya bila mama beritahu yang kami akan buat Umrah sekitar bulan 9 dulu, saya tak adalah rasa apa2 sangat.. gembira memanglah gembira tapi belumlah tergambar keseronokan sebenar yang dok diperkatakan orang tentang umrah ni..

cuma bila mengikut 2 kursus umrah barulah rasa nak pergi tu berkobar2 sangat... perasaan tak sabar melihat kaabah masjidilharam, masjid nabawi dengan mata sendiri, bertawaf dan bersaie, berdoa di Raudhah, Multazam dan Hijir Ismail serta menitip salam di Maqam Nabi dan Baqi'...

malah dengan tahap imaginasi saya yang over ni, saya terbayang bertemu jodoh di pintu Masjidilharam seperti dalam novel 'Adam dan Hawa' (walaupunlah kurang logiknya angan saya ni)

walaumacam mana pun,saya ingat kata2 ustaz ketika kursus... lainnya ibadah Haji dan Umrah ni adalah kerana ini ajelah ibadah yang tempatnya khusus, tak seperti solat, puasa dan zakat yang boleh dilakukan di mana2, Haji dan Umrah hanya boleh dilakukan di Mekah sahaja..

maka istimewanya ibadah ini adalah kerana ia di dasarkan atas jemputan ALLAH Taala sahaja... Bila Allah sendiri yang menjemput kita ke Rumah-Nya, barulah kita diizinkan pergi.. tak kiralah berapa banyak duit yang kita ada, org besar mana yg kita kenal atau persediaan banyak mana yang kita dah buat, kalau Allah belum lagi nak jemput kita, pastilah takkan sampai pun kita..

jadi sekarang, kata Abah, kita anggap ajelah bukan rezeki kita.. esok2 bila Allah nak jemput kita lagi, dengan izinnya kita dapat pergi juga insyaAllah...mungkin itu lebih baik buat kami sekeluarga......

insyaAllah satu hari nanti, sampai juga kami sekeluarga... nantikan kami ye..

hmm, manalah tahu lepas kahwin suami nak hadiahkan honeymoon sambil buat Umrah..bestnye :)


along's e-day

Alhamdulillah, selesai dah majlis bertunang along, my older sister... for the past weeks its been one of the major topics discussed in our household - the other topics includes kejadian severe diarrhea atau dalam bahasa family kitorg 'menceretan' yang berlanjutan selama seminggu sebab tersalah makan (mangsa utama, myself and bakal penunang, along). Syukur semuanya selamat dijalankan dan along kini bergelar tunang orang.


along, si penunang

hantaran yg disiapkan mak su

bakal abang iparku yang tak berapa tahu malu

our family minus kak lang (sorry lang)

tapikan, satu je yang saya tak berapa best (on my half lah)... disebabkan nilah masanya semua sedara-mara berkumpul, semuanya tanya soklan yang sama je....angah biler lagi???
alamak makcik, pakcik sepupu sepapatku semua... angah lama lagi kot... calun pun tarak lagi....hehe

p/s fiancee dalam bahasa melayu apa? Penunang? Tunangan?


15 again

my sister, kak chik, the fourth one, she's 15... that's 6 years apart from me... being home, being here for her, makes me reminiscent on my days when I was 15.. if u ask me, i think 15 is a pretty cool age to be..

when you're 15, boys seem to be a really big deal... your girlfriends talk about them constantly, you talk about them constantly... i don't know what 15 year old boys think about but i could pretty much take a big guess that girls must be a really huge part of it...

when you're 15, relationship seems to be the 'it' thing... everyone has a 'couple'.. even if it isn't declared yet, gossip just flows around... and its not even about having someone you like or not, its about having that someone, even if its just so that you don't get left out..

when you're 15, looks are the utmost important... well, maybe not to all, but this is about the time, the fashionista girl and the macho guy is born... you fuss about the new pimple, the recent hair growth (if it hasn't started from 13 yet).. so then you experiment on facial product, hair product and every other product there is....

when you're 15, responsibility seems like a really foreign word.. it bears not that much of a significance.. not when money comes easy (mom n dad) and life just appears to be about existing and enjoying... the only biggest responsibility that you have is your room and maybe your grades...

when you're 15, life doesn't seem that bad....not utterly great, but not too bad... at school, you're neither the youngest nor the oldest... at home, your parents don't treat you like little kids nor do they treat you like adults...

when i was 15, i was neither clever not stupid, neither pretty nor ugly, neither famous nor loner... i had success and failure, relationships that were both good and bad , both friends and enemies...

now that i'm 21, if i could turn back time and be 15 again, i don't think there's much that i would change.... the cliche would be that 'what i did in the pass shapes the person i am now'... i would love to not be a cliche, but cliches become cliches for a reason, and in my case, i'm happy settling to be a cliche....

shop till u drop


I've been spending time at home reading the shopoholic series by Sophie Kinsella that along brought back from UK... I know, i know, its so last decade ago, but i've never been really keen to read it coz i knew that it came in a series.. so u can't sorta just read one, you have to like read all five of em and since no money no talk, hence the never read one before...

so i started of with the first one, the secret dreamworld of a shopaholic.. but i kinda skipped a lot of it.. my first impression was, man, this Becky Bloomwood was really mental... not like she was crazy lunatic mental, but the constant lies, i mean, how much could one person actually lie in a day? and the shopping... OMG... some of the brands were even unknown to me.. i mean, naturally i myself am not an avid shopper, but talk about addiction... so i kinda skipped, to the next one the shopoholic abroad.. this time around she had a more stable relationship with Luke Brandon, a PR boss.. i gotta admit, as a sucker for romance, i was more keen on reading not because of Becky herself but because of her relationship with Luke actually... then, i went on to read Shopoholic ties the knot, shopaholic and sister and the last one, shopoholic and baby before doing a u-turn and read the first one again...i think the one i loved the most was the last in the series, shopoholic and baby, because again, as a romantic, i just loved it when Luke stood up for Becky against the red-haired bitch, Venetia and finally when they had their baby in the most intense situation ever (well, thats not so true considering i've never been in labour myself so i don't really know how intense it gets)...

the whole series

reading through the life of Becky, I realize how fortunate i am to dislike shopping.. its not that i hate it, i mean, shopping is an essential form of live survival (ha... being philosophical again) but the tedious process of having to dress up to go (ladies out there will understand what i mean) then getting there, and then once there having to choose, get the right size, the affordable price (most important note here) and the one i hate the most, the having to try it on in the fitting rooms (if not before that wait in line first) with no hooks and sometimes just a flimsy curtain separating your oh not so decent self and the world... if it doesn't fit or just plain ugly on you, you gotta repeat the whole process again... don't get me wrong, once in a while, yeah i like to go out with my girls, have a fun day at the shops... but to spend more than 3-4 hours, thats just torture...

the movie version

and talk about the price... prada, gucci, louise vuitton, tiffany's.. i mean... have you ever been in one of these stores... its just mind blowing... i once stumbled (i'm loosely using the word stumble because honest to god, we really did accidentally got there) on the highest floor in Chadstone (its like one of the biggest shopping centers in Victoria) where the whole floor was dedicated to these high-standard, price-blowing stores... and in front of each store was one of those barriers you see at concerts, and people were lining up just to get in (apparently only like 10 customer were allowed once a t a time).. i was seriously taken away at the price tags.. well, i didn't actually get in the store ( i was carrying a cheap mychemist bag where you get perfume for half price) but from the glass window, it was outstanding... i mean its not like i'm a cheapskate like Becky's sister Jess or something despite abah nicknaming me taik hidung masin (i won't brother translating that), but 20 AUD for a dress is my limit and even then i usually only buy them when they're half price...

but i guess each to its own... maybe because mama n abah brought us up, not to look for brands but rather the quality of money, but for other people, well its up to them.... who knows maybe i'll meet a guy who owns a big gigantic company and can afford to spurge me with all the luxury in the world.. ahhh... in my dreams :)

p/s i loooove my new layout

home sweet home

wow.. it feels like ages since i had the urge to pen down something here... well lets see, first of, i'm back home, Malaysia home not Melbourne home.. so i guess i'm home home... gosh, it just feels so damn good... i mean, the moment the flight attendant announced 'and to fellow Malaysians, WELCOME HOME' i was like feeling super giddy inside.. like i wanted to smile really wide and be like jumpy and stuff but the guy sitting beside me was totally like so what... so i kinda had to just gaze out the window, pretending to be enjoying the beautiful landscape outside when there wasn't really anything that cool to be looking at... ok, bad Malaysian.. sure my country's beautiful and stuff, but you know what i mean right... LCCT isn't that much of a sight if i'm being really honest..

well, let's see... the change.. wow.. i mean, i kinda knew that when you're like 9 or maybe 10 (i always get the months wrong) months away, there's bound to be some difference at home, but talk about change.. where do i start.. hmmm.. well, the house isn't red anymore, its yellow now.. not like highlight yellow or sunny yellow.. its pleasant yellow, kinda nice.. then there's the bathroom... ok, scratch that all 3 bathrooms (or jamban as we call it here) transformed.. like hotel standard... i mean not to say it was gross when i came home last year, totally not, but this time its like super duper cool and we have hot water now, which come to think of it is really quite funny considering how hot it is here... oh, abah drives a new estima now.. and its black, with tinted windows.. totally feel like your siti nurhaliza or someone important like that.. mama no longer has a car, she's driving along's... and there's this gigantic massage chair in our living room.. i was totally jakon and had like a few goes on it the moment i saw it, but honestly on your 4th round it starts to get even more sore than before you tried it on.. so, 3 rounds max i'll say... and... wait for it... yes, my house now has an exercise machine... which comes to a total shock at first, because my family, exercising..lets just say, not that keen on it (if you've seen me, you have the picture) but its kinda cool coz its not one of those fancy running ones or the cycling ones, but it sorta vibrates like really fast, i haven't got my head around how it works yet, but i guess it kinda shakes all the fat out.. sort off...

that's all physical...on the personal change.. hmm... nah... nothings really changed much.. my family is still the same whacky family i know and love.. aww.... how sappy is that.. but its true... the most obvious, kak chik and adik (my two little sisters if you can still call them little) still fight all the time.. operative word here ALL the time.. the first few days back i kinda just smiled and enjoyed it, relishing how much i missed the bickering..but all good things must come to an end.. days after that it i kinda was hoping that the law will forgive me if i accidentally shot them both..haa... kidding.. but yeah, you get the picture... abah still uses the same MO of trapping us in the car before giving hours of lectures...ooo and the jokes are still as hilarious as ever... and mama, is still mama... worrying about her kids 24/7.. when you think about it, i kinda feel guilty that she has to worry so much about us.. but she's mama, and we love her... and.. oooohhh... along is busy getting engaged... kinda out of the blue... still can't believe she's getting married...its weird actually.. you know it will happen some day, but you never think someday is today (hypothetical today, not like today today).. she's still my big sis in all senses and now she's not just gonna be along, she's gonna be like someone's wife and mom... it's got my whole family buzzing... i mean, it's kinda funny... watching mama n abah go full wedding mode.. they went to this wedding this weekend and came back with tonnes of ideas for along's majlis...some really good, some were just...hmmm...so i guess were just missing out kak lang... she's been in egypt 2 months now.. its kinda sad when we all sit together to eat or gossip and someone's missing and this time around its kak lang... i haven't seen her for months now, and i really do miss her...not forgetting, we have a new addition to the family... ENCOT... forgive the name, but he's a really cute obese cat that mama, my sisters and even abah are sooo obses about...

introducing the infamous ENCOT

i'll be home for the next 3 months.. thats a long time of doing nothing at home.. that's true really, i don't really do much at home except the daily routine of waking up (at 9.30, latest :p) doing laundry, prepare lunch blah blah blah.. things that i've been doing like forever... i mean, its been kinda the same routine each time its a school holiday since i was like form one, so now years later, even when i'm home from uni break, it still feels the same... its kinda like one of those hate/love things where u hate doing it but because you do it all the time you sort of love doing it now...not sure if i'm gonna be doing my intern... i want to, but not really putting my hopes too high... i'll try to find a new hobby this time around rather that lazing myself out but again not putting my hopes too high... lets just say, i'm allowing myself 3 months of blissful family time before that vicious time of studying comes again next year...yeah, right... :)

inspiration

i've been looking at the screen for quite some time now.. trying to pin the right words... its as if there is something i wanna say, just that i don't know how or maybe i can't even figure out what.. geuss i'm just

NOT INSPIRED
!!!!!

ragam asam garam

hidup kat dunia ni macam2 ragam kita...ader org nak yang tu.. ader org nak yang ni... kenapa ye?

jawapan kepada soalan tu rasanya sangatlah kompleks dan memerlukan bertahun belajar macam2 ilmu psychology, philosophy dan paling penting sekali peoplogy! yup, ilmu tentang manusia tu sendiri.. sebab, at the end of the day, ragam2 yang pelbagai ni semuanye berpunca dari sebab yang satu tu.. sebab kita manusia..

sebagai manusia, setiap kita dianugerah dengan perasaan dan pemikiran yang berbeza. kita juga dibesarkan dengan environment, ideologi dan tatacara kehidupan yang berbeza. hasilnya, setiap dari kita punya keperluan dan kemahuan yang berbeza.. kalau dari segi relatifnya, mungkin keperluan kita lebih kurang sama... we all want the basic essentials of life.. materialistically, kita semua nak ader tempat berteduh, pakaian, makanan n so on.. emotionally, kita nak ader company, kita nak ader org lain yang wujud bersama kita selain diri kita..tapi, bile bercakap pasal kemahuan, itu yang besar memisahkan seorang dengan seorang yang lain... mahu orang ni rumah yang besar kat atas bukit, kat depan laut.. mahu orang lain pula, rumah yang kecil dan comel di tengah sawah... mahu orang ni, baju yang fashion tekini, mahu orang lain, baju yang asal selesa sudah...

dari perasaan2 dan pendapat2 berbeza ni lah timbulnye konflik... ia mugkin konflik yang kecil je macam nak naik apa pegi uni hari ni... kawan kita nak naik tram, kita plak nak jalan kaki... kepadalah konflik yang lagi besar macam, parti politik ni nak keluarkan dasar ni tapi parti yang lagi satu nak keluarkan dasar yang jauh bertentangan... dulu masa sekolah belajar pasal konflik ni dalam kemahiran hidup, x sangkalah pulak, konflik tu boleh timbul dalam setiap sudut of our life and in every decision yang kita kena buat...

tapi...takkanlah hanya sebab kita semua nak benda yang lain2, kita perlu berpecah belah, bergaduh-gaduh... kita semua tahu, benda gaduh2 ni x pernah end well.. berapa banyak cerita tah yang kita dah belajar masa sejarah dulu pasal sultan gaduh2 akhirnye negeri jatuh ke tangan British...Al-Quran banyak sgt kisah dan peringatan supaya manusia ni hidup bersatu-padu dan jangan bercerai-berai (sile rujuk pada yang lebih pakar ye..) tinggal lagi kita nak amik pengajaran ke tidak...

kalau nak tunggu satu hari yang mana semua kita ni akan ader kehendak dan kemahuan yang sama, rasanya till the end of day pun x kan ader.. sebab tulah, rasanya kat sinilah konsep berlapang dada tu sangat penting...

the first step in doing so is kita kena acknowledge first yang kita ni berbeza... kita sendiri kena faham yang apa yang kita nak x sama ngn apa org lain.. tak adillah rasanya kalau kita nak org lain faham, tapi kita sendiri x faham... so, the main point is fahamlah hakikat bahawa saya dan awak berbeza dan perbezaan itu sesuatu yang normal

step kedua, terima perbezaan itu.. this maybe the hardest step.. sebab kita pun ader mahu kita yang lain dari mahu dia.. so, kat sinilah konsep agree to disagree.. kita sama2 setuju yang kita sama2 x setuju.. yang penting kat sini, kita kena positive thinking.. kita anggaplah bahawa bile kita terima kehendak orang tu, the feeling would be mutual...no gaduh2 no banyak2 nak serabut..

and the final step adalah redha... the moment we make a decision utk terima kehendak dia, hati kita juga perlu meredhai decision itu.. ni yang selalu bermasalah ngn kita ni.. kat mulut cakap OK kat hati cakap KO.. understandably, it really is hard utk capai tahap hati yang mudah redha ni - saya sendiri cukup paham n tahu.. tapi i do think that with practice and preservation insyaAllah we can do it...

apa sekali pun, we still have to look at the good side of things.. sebab kan ragam manusia ni yang macam2 laa kita dapat hidup dekat dunia yang penuh warna-warni dan sgt interesting ni... Allah knows best tujuan dia letak kita kat dunia ni, tinggal lagi utk kita hargai...

just my 2 cent on making this world a better place to live in :)

salam perantauan

sebab x sempat nak hantar salam perantauan yg solo ke utusan or berita harian, letak jelah kat sini eh...heheh


bermain salji di Lake Mountain

saya, Anith A.Aziz, pelajar jurusan farmasi, Monash University, Melbourne, Australia, ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin dari hujung kaki ke hujung rambut kepada keluarga tercinta especially to Mama, Abah, kak lang, kak chik dan adik di Johor, serta along di Leeds, UK. Juga kepada sanak saudara, sahabat handai yang berada di seluruh pelosok dunia, guru-guru di KISAS dan pensyarah-pensyarah si INTEC serta penaja saya JPA. Semoga Aidilfitri ini membawa sejuta kegembiraan buat semua. Makan best2 raya tu ingat lah org jauh ye ;)

ayat skema untuk surat khabar

His help

as i take on this new responsibility i pray to ALLAH:

to give me the strength to keep up with everything

to give me the power to speak out my mind wisely and rationally

to give me the passion to make firm on my beliefs

to make me humble and not arrogant

to make me selfless without being selfish

to make me organized and never be a mess

but most importantly,

to provide me guidance through the path you have chosen for me

and never let me get lost in that chosen path

Allah lebih tahu yang terbaik untuk umatnye :)

things to do on Night of Power

Someone gave this to me anonymously (whoever u are, tenkiu ;) and i've already shared it during my usrah session.. now i'm sharing it here... i've compressed it a bit for easier understanding. Let's struve for our best for these few last amazing nights okay? n

1. Take a vacation for Allah

We take a break from our jobs for almost everything in life. Why not this time to focus on worshiping and thanking our Creator.

2. Do Itikaf

It was a practice of the Prophet to spend the last ten days and nights of Ramadan in the masjid for Itikaf.

3. Make this special Dua

Aisha, may Allah be pleased with her, said: I asked the Messenger of Allah: 'O Messenger of Allah, if I know what night is the night of Qadr, what should I say during it?' He said: 'Say: O Allah, You are pardoning and You love to pardon, so pardon me.' "(Ahmad, Ibn Majah, and Tirmidhi).

The transliteration of this Dua is "Allahumma innaka `afuwwun tuhibbul `afwa fa`fu `annee"

4. Recite the Quran

Perhaps you can choose Surahs or passages from the Quran which you have heard in Tarawih this past Ramadan to recite.

5. Reflect on the meaning of the Quran

Choose the latest Surah or Surahs you've heard in Tarawih and read their translation and Tafseer. Then think deeply about their meaning and how it affects you on a personal level.

6. Get your sins wiped out

Abu Huraira narrated that the Messenger said: Whoever stands (in prayer) in Laylatul Qadr while nourishing his faith with self-evaluation, expecting reward from Allah, will have all of his previous sins forgiven. [Bukhari and Muslim).

Don't just pray using the shorter Surahs that you know. Try to make your prayers longer, deeper and meaningful. If you are familiar with longer Surahs, read the translation and explanation and then pray reciting these Surahs, carefully reflecting on the meaning while you pray.

Even if you are only familiar with the shorter Surahs, read the translation and explanation beforehand, and then pray reflecting on the message of the Surahs.

This is a good way to develop the habit of concentration, even in regular prayers, where many of us tend to be fidgety and/or easily distracted.

7. Make a personal Dua list.

Ask yourself what you really want from Allah. Make a list of each and everything, no matter how small or how big it is, whether it deals with this world or not. Allah loves to hear from us. Once this list is ready, you can do three things:

• Ask Allah to give you those things
• Think about what actions you have taken to get those things
• Develop a work plan to get those things in future.

8. Evaluate yourself.

Ask yourself those questions that need to be asked. Do an evaluation of where you are and where you are going. Let this evaluation lead you to feel happiness for the good you have done and remorse for the bad you have done. This latter feeling should make it easier to seek Allah's sincere forgiveness when making the Dua mentioned in tip number one above.

9. Make long, sincere and deep Duas

One of the best times to do this is during the last part of the night.

Abu Huraira, may Allah be pleased with him, related that the Prophet said: When the last one-third of the night remains, our Lord, the Glorious One descends towards the heaven of the earth and proclaims: Who is that who supplicates for Me, and I grant his supplication? Who is that who begs Me for anything and I grant it to him? And who is that who seeks My forgiveness, and I forgive him? (Bukhari, Muslim).

That means for instance, waking up one hour before Suhoor time to ask Allah for anything and everything you want that is Halal. This can be done using the Duas of the Sunnah, but also Dua in your own language, with sincerity and conviction.

10. Memorize a different Dua every night

They don't have to be long. They can be just one line. And be sure to know what they mean generally at least, even if you don't know the exact translation in English.

You can put them on index cards (or and keep them with you during the day, glancing at them during work, while driving, waiting in line, etc.) Then practice them at night in prayer.

11. Have Iftar with the family

If you've spent Iftar time on weekdays in your cubicle at work alone with a couple of dates, now is the last few days you'll have this Ramadan to spend with your family. Use it wisely.

12. Take the family to Tarawih

Have your spouse and kids missed Tarawih most of Ramadan because you weren't there to drive them to the Masjid, which is too far away to walk to? If so, do all of yourselves a favor and bring everyone for Tarawih in these last ten nights.

13. Attend the Dua after the completion of Quran recitation

Almost all Masjids where the Imam aims to finish an entire reading of the Quran in Tarawih prayers in Ramadan will be completing their recitation in these last ten nights. They may try to end on one of the odd nights and read the Dua at the end of a reading of the Quran. Attend this particular night's Tarawih prayer with your family. See if you can attend different Masjids' Tarawih prayers the night they finish reading the Quran.

14. Finish reading a book on the Prophet

Read about the Prophet's life, which can increase your love for him and Islam by seeing how much he struggled for Allah's sake. It may inspire you to push yourself even harder during these last ten nights.

15. Plan for the next year

Once you've done a self-evaluation, you can plan on where you want to go, at least in the next 12 months. Laylatul Qadr is a great night to be thinking about this (without taking away from your worship), since you'll Insha Allah, be in a more contemplative state. You may choose to dedicate one night of power for evaluation and one night for planning for the next year.

16. To do list for the Night of Power

Make a to do checklist for each Night of Power. This should define how you would like your night, the one better than a thousand months, to be used. Pick things from this list and define the sequence you would like to do things in. This will help you avoid wasting your time in unproductive chats which common in the festive atmosphere of Masjids at the Night of Power.

all credits go to the original writer: Abdul Malik Mujahid @ http://www.soundvision.com/info/ramadan/10.16things.asp


to my OLD sis

i miss your crazy gedik self


i miss our late night pillow talks




i miss our little (big) fights


but most of all


i miss my big sis :(

happy birthday baby tua abah!!!

i know i'm being sappy rite now, blame the 2 year separation

ooopss.. terponteng lagi

Don't know what's happened to me this semester... last monday i ponteng morning lecture becoz... emmm.. i was simply tooo malas to get my butt of the katil... but today, on one of the few days i was really really looking forward to pegi lecture... terponteng jugak.. nak buat macam mana menstrual pain is a dem nuisance ok.. don't wanna disturb the class with my whole groaning n twisting every few minutes (as if they really bother)... got me thinking.. ni kalau period pain sikit - understatement ok, today sakit giler... macam mana sakit being pregnant ek.. alamatnye 9 bulan x pegi keje.. bye2 laa pay check..huhu.. hang on a bit.. awat jauh sangat pikir.. hish.. these hormones are making me crazy.. but back to present, the good news is tak yah poser (yeay, boleh buat kuih raya tanpa perlu menahan nafsu) tapi still in time for semayang raya.... the bad news, i'm gonna miss out on the best 10 nights of Ramadhan :(

off to lectopia land... zzzzzzz

seeking Lalilatul Qadr


My uni friend asked me today, does Lalilatul Qadr start tonight. I answered, today's 20th Ramadhan, so I guess so.. but then I saw this.. Lailatul Qadr is not just a night, but its goal that we build up every night to anticipate the coming of this night. when and how it'll happen, Allah knows best.. not to leave us guessing but to make us aware that every night (and every day for that matter) is a chance for us to seek his love, guidance and redemption. may Allah meet us all with the most awarded night of Lailatul Qadr... Ameen..

merdeka drabbles

today's 31st August.. the day my country gains its independence..

gifted to us, the latter generations by a our founding forefathers

with every bead of sweat, every ounce of effort to search for that ray of sunshine

to finally award us with the meaning of freedom

but i'm starting to wonder what the real price is behind this so called freedom

if my country men are throwing away their lives as if it means nothing

if my country women give birth to the future generation only to dump them in drains and sewers

if the only way to get around is through so called political conspiracy

and if the word merdeka finally means nothing more than a day of festivities and getting drunk.

I love my country and I'm not ashamed to admit it

flaws and faults, it still is the place I consider home

Just that I hope we could all get to finally believe

that being merdeka is not just about getting independence for the state

but also independence of the mind, the soul and the heart

the mind to be put together to build a nation able to withstand the hardship of the world

the soul to put aside our differences and hold on to each other as we fight our enemies

and the heart to believe that the love that we have for this country is pure and true.

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia.

sehingga ke akhir hayat

for the rest of my life

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
OOOOO
And theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together in jannah
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
OOOO
And theres a couple word I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

Artist: Maher Zain
Album: Thank You Allah
Copyright: Awakening Records 2009

bile laaa ader org nak dedicatekan lagu ni ye.. hmmm...heheh

syaitan diikat?

dah 6 hari since start Ramadhan... 5 hari since saya start berpuasa.. (oops, kantoi)... Ramadhan oh Ramadhan.. mungkin ramai gak yang tanya.. what's the big deal kan? its just a month out of 12 months jadi apa yang istimewanye?

ahad lepas ader iftar sisters and after terawih ader tazkirah sikit dari kak itri and one of the things yang dia cakap yang membuat saya terfikir adalah istilah 'syaitan dibelenggu'. term ini rasanya memang standard digunakan setiap kali puasa datang.. kena ikat lah, kena rantai llah.. tak kira lah.. tapi yang penting dia xdelah...


tapi bila fikir balik kalau setan dan konco2 dia dah kena ikat.. kenapa masih ader org buat jahat masa bulan puasa... contoh paling senang org yg kena tangkap makan kat bulan puasa.. amik ko, terang lagi bersuluh kot... n macam2 lagilah... buang bayi jgn kiralah, tu kena simpan utk perbincangan lain plak...hish.. manusia manusia....tapi inilah antara reason yg dibincang... my memory xdelah ingat sgt, but nak dekat2 laa kot...

reason pertama, maybe sebab, mostly syaitan yang bapak2 syaitan, yang gangster2 yang kena ikat.. yang kecik2 masih ader lagi... yang ni, ustaz Burhan pun ader cakap... kat sisi kita ni masih ader satu lagi benda yang susahhhh sangat nak control.. NAFSU! yang org kata lelaki ader 1 and pompuan ader 9.. tulah dia.... sebab nafsu ni sangatlah degil makhluknya... pendek ceritanya, lepas 3 kali masuk neraka dan disiksa oleh ALLAH taala, baru dia finally tidaklah angkuh dan menjawab kepada-NYA, 'aku adalah aku, engkau adalah engkau'.. familiar ke phrase ni? kalau familiar, kena check diri balik ni...lagi satu makhluk kawan setan yang x diikat adalah MANUSIA YANG MACAM SETAN! haaa... yang ni lagi dah... manusia degil yang dah tertutup pintu hatinya sampai akhirnya jadi pengikut syaitan juga.... diorg patut kena ikat sekali, tapi sebab x boleh nak buat macam mana kan...

reason kedua sebab mungkin syaitan kena ikatnye sebulan je... habis yang 11 bulan before this macam mana? analoginye katalah kita suka makan kuih ni katalah nama kuih ni kuih sri muka (yang atas dia hijau and bawah dia pulut tu..) sebab dia lah manis, dialah sedap...high sugar level yang x baik utk kesihatan belakang kiralah..... hari2 selama 11 bulan kita makan.... pastu tetiba makcik yang jual kuih kat depan masjid tu sakit and x jual kuih selama sebulan... maka sebulan laa kita x dapat makan...blood sugar level kita pun turunlah sikit kan..... tapi adakah itu bermakna kita lupa rasa manisnya.. kita lupa rasa sedapnye walaupun melupainya adalah baik utk kesihatan kita? (i know i know, macam lame sikit analoginye tapi xleh nak pikir yang lain dah) macam tu jugak lah kita ni... kalau dah 11 bulan dok dengar, dok ikut je cakap setan... biler dia xde sebulan je, lupa ke kita dengan semua benda jahat yang dia ajak kita buat?

reason yang lastly adalah sebab syaitan ni kena 'ikat' hypothetically speakingla sebab x tau macam mana tapi tu semua kuasa ALLAH.... so bukanlah bermakan dia tiada, dia ada.. tapi kena ikat jelah... ibaratnye, macam ader harimau yang kena ikat ngn tali, harimau tu bukan xde, dia ader, possibility utk dia terkam kita masih ader, tapi kalau kita x datang dekat2 ngn dia x boleh lah dia nak buat apa2 kat kita (analogi kak itri sebab tu best sikit)... samala macam syaitan ni.. dia kena ikat, bagus dah tu.. tapi kalau kita yang manusia ni gatal2 nak dekat2 ngn dia.. nak dekat2 ngn benda jahat yang dia suka kita buat.. tergoda jugaklaa kita... lagi satu kena ingat godaan syaitan tu datangnye dlaam bentuk bisikan.. maka bisikan tu boleh je sampai kat kita kalau hati kita lemah kan...

serba sedikit nilah pemahaman saya tentang apa yang dibincang tu... so konklusinya, sebenarnya dalam bulan yang mulia ni ALLAH dah bagi jalan mudah dah untuk kita dekat dengan dia... ALLAH dah tolong ikatkan dah syaitan jahanam tu... tinggal lagi kita nak grab peluang ni atau x... tapi ini bukan lah bermakna kita boleh gunakan alasan2 yang tersebut di atas untuk ke'tidak baik'kan yang kita lakukan dalam Ramadhan ni.. eh.. tentu tidak.. sebaliknya kita anggap ni cabaran utk diri kita.. sejauh mana sebagai hamba ALLAH kita sentiasa menguatkan diri dan tak membiarkan statement2 seperti 'syiatan dah takde' membuat kan kita lupa yang tanggungjawab beribadah dan berTuhankan yang esa adalah tanggungjawab yang 24/7... ini juga buat renungan saya yang selalu lalai ni...hehe...

p/s selamat berpuasa!
pp/s credits to kak itri ;)