LIFE: me, myself and I

people change all the time

from every new knowledge that we get

every new thing that we see and hear

every new person that we encounter

every new day that we endure


people never stay the same

the different dress they wear

the different words they utter

the different music they hear


good or bad

better or worst

its up to them to decide

and as for the rest

lets just leave it as that ok!

Meet Harry. He's big, he's strong and he certainly is territorial. Never fear you ladies out there, once he lays a claim on you, your his, the one and only... need a picture?

Harry ni nampak je cute, tapi seyes takde manners... tau x apa dia buat masa kitorg nak lalu sungai dia?? Harry telah membuang hajat yang sangat besar.. tu oklah because, paham jelah alangkan manusia pun nak membuang apa lagi laa si badak besar ni... tapi yang x senonohnye harry ni, dahlah strategik je mengadapkan kan behind dia kat kitorg, boleh pulak masa membuang dia goyang2 ekor dia nak sebarkan hasil hajat dia... ish.. x sekolah sungguh badak ni...


kesian zebra ni... umur dia 19 tahun, dalam tahun zebra ni dah kira tua laa ni... pastu family dia a.k.a zebra lain yang muda dan gagah, buang dia, x kasi dia duduk sama2 ngn diorg... kesian kan... semua bini2 dia daripada yang nombor 1 sampai nombor 4 tinggalkan dia untuk zebra lagi satu tu... tulah... masa muda dan larat, tamak, bini nak banyak2.. bile dah tua satu pun x ingat dah kat kita.. pengajaran kepada manusia: kahwin banyak x menjanjikan bahagia hingga ke tua.


antelope ni tgh busy bekejaran2 buat shooting filem hindustan masa datang.. antara dialog yang dapat difahami.....
kajol celup: tumpa se aye, yo muska raye
shah rukh khan wannabe: kuch kuch hota hai



nampak tua gile singa ni ngn bini dia... tapi sangat lovey dovey.. comel n heartbreaking gile tengok suami dia cium2 n jilat2 dia...boys out there patut blaja camne nak jadi romantik daripada encik singa ni.... tapi bukanlah that i want my hubbie to jilat2 me...ewww.... but romantikla.... ish.. paham jelah...

i feel guilty sikit. the thing is, lama dah blog ni x diupdate. guilty pulak pada diri sendiri.

it took me quite some time to set up this blog. lame kan? i mean, blog je bukannye website ke apa kan nak pikir2 banyak2 la plak kan.. but then when i did come to the decision i told myself: anit, nak buat blog ni biar betul2 nak buat, bukan sebab orang lain ader ko pon nak menggedik ade, bukan sebab rasa suka-suki nak ader, bukan sebab nak main2 aje. buat blog, kena buat betul2. kena update selalu. kena komited.

but like most things in my life.. sekejap jelah jadinye... mula2 je rajin nak update2, nak tukar2 template..nak jawab2 komen...kira obses laa.. hari2 nak bukak.. semangat tunggu org nak komen.. x kisahlah jakon ke apa...... tapi..... skang ni rasa macam dah dekat sebulan lebih dah x bukak... dah x mengisahkan ia..... selalu dah macam ni..trust me, ini bukanlah kali pertama.... x percaye?

among the things i've tried out separuh jalan:

• jahit cross-stitch. dahlah mahal beli set cross-stitch tu. sebab salah kira petak dia sikit, gambar dia lari sikit.. terus benti.. konon2 nak buat gambar sorg budak pompuan yang kiut ni (perasan buat gambar sendiri laa tu) tapi tak habis pun buat kaki dia dah give up
• buat kuih. masa balik cuti summer hari tu, mama suruh pegi blaja buat kuih blueberry cheese tart dekat sorg makcik tu. 40 ringgit satu klas. konon dah terer la buat. ingat balik sini nak jual...hohoho.. cita2 melampau tinggi. sudahnye since balik sini penah buat 2-3 kali je kot. jangan kan nak jual, makan sendiri pun x terbuat
• menulis. last year waktu banyak masa free sikit, tryla nak menulis seomething, apa tu x leh lah cakap. semangat ni, dah tulis suku dah kot, balik mesia. dah balik hampeh lah nak sambung tulis balik. sudahnye bersawang la dalam laptop.
• buat livejournal. teruja la masa tu ingat nak tulis cerita dalam tu.. ala2 blog jugak lah.. lepas bukak sekali dua, dah x penah bukak lagi. sampai skang x ingat dah username ngn password.
• ader banyak lagi tapi mostly memalukan sikit nak ditulis kat sini.
  

dulu kecik2 kalau orang tanya, apakah hobi anda? dua je benda boleh jawab. baca buku n tengok tv. betapalah tidak glamer n tidak beraspirasi hobi2 ku ini. lagi2 yang tengok tv tu. segan nak cakap, jadi selalunye jawab yang first, tapi...alah.. x original sungguh. org lain mengumpul setem, bercucuk tanam, bersukan,melukis. tapi saya boleh jawab dua ni je sebab yang baca buku tu xdelah sentiasa.... baca pun bukannye buku ilmiah ke apa.. tapi novel, cerita.. alah apa2 jelah yang ader drama2 dalam dia... yang second tu, tengok tv, cuba bitau sape yang x suka tengok tv? ader ke? but the truth is, xdelah rasa sangat benda ni hobi.. its more like benda yang saya buat on a daily basis.. and not because i like to do it ke sebab rasa best sangat bile buat ke, but because. paham ke?

saya rasalah kan, sebab nye adalah saya susah sangat nak keep focused satu benda tu je. susah nak stay comitted kat satu benda je yang saya buat. for a while bolehlah.. masa tengah semangat n obses.. tapi lama2 dia macam blur... benti before siap... x taulah macam mana nanti bile i really need to stay committed... macam biler dah ader keje ke.. ader family ke... masa tu mana boleh suka2 nak benti2.. alamak bosanlah, xnak buat lagilah.. mana boleh kan? hish.. x taulah... lama ni nak kena fikir macam mana nak cari solution.

but maybe kan... i lack comittment because i lack the passion. seriously i think, if i could just somehow find something that i'm really really passionate about, insyaAllah boleh lah kot kan...i mean, kalau kita passionate pasal benda tu, mesti anything that comes, we'll still stick to it coz we believe in it.. guess that's my problem. taktaulah am i really passionate about becoming a pharmacist...if so, why is it that sometimes i feel that there's still something out there waiting for me..entahlah....jauh pulak dah melencong....

but what i do know now is that this blog is my first step towards being a more committed person.. i love writing... i feel that there's so much goin on in my mind, all these stories, dialogs, drama, fantasies that i should write about.. but because i malas sangat nak pen it down..tersekat jelah dalam tu.. so now i'm trying to make a new promise to myself. i promise that all the things that i'm feeling, all the stuff that i'm thinkin about, i will try to get it written down. i hope i do keep this promise insyaAllah....so know lets just see what happens kan...hmmm.....