LIFE: me, myself and I

seperti biasa, selaku gadis neurotic, menjadi tugas sayalah untuk menggilakan diri pada hari tu barking orders and trying to get everything done. kenapa ye dalam keadaan-keadaan sebegini saya menjadi MAD?

1. bile buat event macam ni, i always want the best! sebab tu i always try to get myself to give all out to ensure event berjaya


2. i am the hantu of planning. in my head there is this set of plan that sorry to say must rigidly be followed. berlaku kepincangan walaupun sesentimeter, perasaan tidak enak itu akan menaikkan lahar kemarahan dalam diri saya.. no, its not that i'm a perfectionist, cuma nya tak suka bile things lari dari koordinasinya. walaubagaimanapun, seperti selalunya, tidak akan semua benda tu ikut perancangan kita. rancangan ALLAH tu kan lagi maha hebat


3. i am so particular about the minor2 details. macam, nak tampal benda ni kat mana, nak stapler benda tu dengan apa, ala, benda2 yang org lain malas nak pikir, pukul berapa nak kena buat ni....haaaa.. otak nilah yang suka sibuk2 nak pikir.... sampai ening otak org lain...hohoh

see.. membusybodykan diri

jadi di kesempatan ini, saya mohon maaf lah ye kepada sesiapa yang terkena the wrath of my craziness.. semua itu tidak disengajakan... maaf sangat2...heheh

tapi, untuk kali ni, saya rasa seperti ader kekurangan sikit.. hmm, sepertinya tahun lepas punya forum lagi mudah diuruskan berbanding yang ini.. mungkin sahaja organisasinya perlu di ubah sikit je... tugasan diagih perlu lebih efisyen sikit n paling penting, duit sponsor lebih sikit...

with project manager ZIA, think tank BEH n special task RASHID

hmmm, masa tgh2 giler2 rancang event ni rasanya thousand times kot i told everyone, yes everyone, okay xlah everyone, just org yang nak dengar hehe.. yang i want to quit.. tak nak lagi buat benda2 time consuming, stress-provoking, energy-draining and brain cell-slushing seperti ini lagi...

tapiiiiiii.... ini lah kot rasanya menjilat ludah sendiri... ewwwwww... tak dapat tidak, i still volunteered for the next MASCA forum... kenapa ye???

at the moment i see people enjoying the event

people sitting next together irrespective of race and religion

and then the sound of appreciative clapping

the feedback n comments that show their attention and understanding

and finally the thanks and praises we get after the event

that's when i realize, at this moment, i have done something. i have made my mark in this world. i have done something not that big but at least a tad bit significant for my beloved country. i have helped people get a glimpse of their country's future and what it means to them. and that people is an addiction. and so again, i slave myself to do my best just in the hope that others too will be inspired to take a step back and think "apa saya dah buat untuk negara saya?"

p/s: susah nak update, laptop masuk surgery.. prognosis: mungkin akan dapat pulang ke rumah dalam sebulan..huhuhu