banyak benda dalam dunia ni, kita rasa dah nak dekat dah dengan kita, dah nak sampai dah ke tangan kita, tapi kita selalu lupa, keputusan akhir sentiasa ada di tangan-Nya...
begitulah yg dirasai saya sekeluarga.. mengikut perancangannya, insyaAllah minggu depan kami akan bertolak ke Jeddah untuk memulakan ibadah umrah selama 13 hari, 11 malam....
tapi takdir Allah yang menentukan segalanya.. tak sampai seminggu sebelum tarikh bertolak, travel agency memberitakan yang visa ziarah ditolak kerajaan Arab Saudi kerana beberapa masalah..
bukan kami je yang tak dapat pergi, malah semua rakyat Malaysia dan negara2 lain juga ditolak visanya kerana kerajaan Arab Saudi ingin 'membersihkan' kota Mekah dari pendatang2 asing yang menbanjiri kota suci...
dalam hati ada rasa sedih, rasa helpless juga hopeless.. banyak sebenarnya benda yang telah saya rancangakan.. list doa saya bertambah setiap hari.. doa untuk diri, keluarga, kawan2, kerjaya dan jodoh...
mulanya bila mama beritahu yang kami akan buat Umrah sekitar bulan 9 dulu, saya tak adalah rasa apa2 sangat.. gembira memanglah gembira tapi belumlah tergambar keseronokan sebenar yang dok diperkatakan orang tentang umrah ni..
cuma bila mengikut 2 kursus umrah barulah rasa nak pergi tu berkobar2 sangat... perasaan tak sabar melihat kaabah masjidilharam, masjid nabawi dengan mata sendiri, bertawaf dan bersaie, berdoa di Raudhah, Multazam dan Hijir Ismail serta menitip salam di Maqam Nabi dan Baqi'...
malah dengan tahap imaginasi saya yang over ni, saya terbayang bertemu jodoh di pintu Masjidilharam seperti dalam novel 'Adam dan Hawa' (walaupunlah kurang logiknya angan saya ni)
walaumacam mana pun,saya ingat kata2 ustaz ketika kursus... lainnya ibadah Haji dan Umrah ni adalah kerana ini ajelah ibadah yang tempatnya khusus, tak seperti solat, puasa dan zakat yang boleh dilakukan di mana2, Haji dan Umrah hanya boleh dilakukan di Mekah sahaja..
maka istimewanya ibadah ini adalah kerana ia di dasarkan atas jemputan ALLAH Taala sahaja... Bila Allah sendiri yang menjemput kita ke Rumah-Nya, barulah kita diizinkan pergi.. tak kiralah berapa banyak duit yang kita ada, org besar mana yg kita kenal atau persediaan banyak mana yang kita dah buat, kalau Allah belum lagi nak jemput kita, pastilah takkan sampai pun kita..
jadi sekarang, kata Abah, kita anggap ajelah bukan rezeki kita.. esok2 bila Allah nak jemput kita lagi, dengan izinnya kita dapat pergi juga insyaAllah...mungkin itu lebih baik buat kami sekeluarga......
insyaAllah satu hari nanti, sampai juga kami sekeluarga... nantikan kami ye..
hmm, manalah tahu lepas kahwin suami nak hadiahkan honeymoon sambil buat Umrah..bestnye :)
4 comments:
Amiiiin...
Aku nk blanja famili.
Ntah brapalah kosnya.
hi, i just want to relate your stories with myself.
Who could imagine that all our lives are controlled by our own perception. We are creating our lives and our own reality as we go. What corner did you paint yourself into? Didn't you see it coming? did you travel a different way home for no reason? your higher self is giving little hints all the time. We need to listen to those hints.
The other day I was on my way to the gas station and at the same time I had the sudden urge to go to the bath room. As my home was on the way the gas station that I frequent, I stopped home first. As I sat on the john, I heard the wailing sirens go past my home. I didn't give it much thought.
When I got to the gas station, the gas pumps and a car were engulfed in flames. If I hadn't stopped, I may have died that day. I got to start paying more attention to these gut feelings. I'm not just talking about bathroom visits. This may have been a coincidence but who is to say.
You mind and body are constantly gathering information about your surroundings. Sometimes you get an over all view in a dream or someone says something that jars a forgotten thought into focus. Be alert to the little nuances.
p/s :Of course as a muslim we must have a firm believe in fate, or what we called takdir. and yes i believe takdir have save my life:D
wow.. u're story is something worth the share...
in my ups and downs, i think one of the most important lesson that i have learnt is that the saying of 'everything happens for a reason' is definitely true. and as a firm believer of takdir Tuhan, i always try to tell myself that no matter how much i hate what's goin on right now, i have to have faith in him that there must be something there waiting for me at the end. however, learning to hold on to that is really something easier said than done.
thanks so much for dropping by and sharing these beautiful thoughts of yours.
if you too have a blog, do share with me the link, please :)
Its true that everything happens for a good reasons. By accepting all events happen in your life, incredibly it taught us to have a positive thinking. Faith is a matter of what we feel and believe.
I can sense your passion and enthusiasm in searching for a right way to live the life. Likewise, i have been on this journey a while ago. Its not easy to keep things in balance,dunya and akhirah isnt?
I dont have any blogs to start, so lets say that i dont have any link to share with you ;p But inshaallah from time to time i will keep commenting on your posts, in a hope to get a responses from you.
Anyway its good to know someone like you around my circle, though we have not meet again like 10 years. Dont be a stranger, feel free to ask anything about life. I really like open ended question subjects:)
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